Post 34th Birthday

I was not well last week. Yes, on the day I turned 34, I was having red eyes, sore throat and fever. What a day rite… but Alhamdulillah I sailed through…

Papa wished me on the early morning, about 1 am. He did ask me if he was the first one to wish, and old him no…actually I have gotten few wishes through FB but I told him, the rest of the wishes were not important as his.. 

I admitted when I first got married, I tend to be over sensitive of important dates, such as birthday & anniversary. I was expecting my husband to be romantic and wish me on the dates and of coz forgetting was not in the list. That is my dream husband. Shower me with romantic, not that I care about what gift that he give but its more about the thoughts that count, rite.. but I think Allah Maha Kaya that He gave Pa as my husband which is 100% contradict from what I wanted. At first, it was quite depression. I always felt hurt when he took it easily and felt that he didn’t care about my feeling.
But, through the years, I have gone mild and be realistic. I love him for what he is and always love him and not for what he is not. So, I took rational thoughts about it. What bother, I mean he did wish me (only for 1 year which he forgot). I understand his situation where he didn’t have enough penny so I guess the wish and thoughts really count.

He actually bought me a cake. I was really surprised and never thought he will do such thing. See, I am so easy to pleased, ain’t I. 

There goes my birthday… it was quite and very low key but I love it. Despite my illness but I felt blessed with my family.

Pre-birthday post

today is a day before i celebrate my 33rd birthday. wow, i have been in this world for that long huuh.... anyway, alhamdulillah for all the great things happened in my life and i am counting for more. alhamdulillah for having pa as my husband, abang imi and adik zati as my zuriat. yes, no doubt there were times that they tested me in so many ways but i am still blessed to have them in my life. no to forget, mak & abah (both my parents & in law), bibik lasmi as well and of course my friends around me.
of course i still have long list that i wanted to do or to have in my future. among others, to have a good career/job that near to my house (maybe in cyberjaya or digi would do.. :)), to reduce a lotsss of weight and also to improve myself physically & mentally, ie be good muslimah and mother.

what to expect for my birthday.. well, i do not expect anything. no flowers or surprises because i know i wouldnt get any of those. having married to pa for 7 years now, i have learned to compromise on this. i know that pa is not like those jiwang husband and through the years i have no expectation because if i do, it will hurt me. so i go along the way but of course i expected a wish from him. pa, if u ever forget to wish, i will merajuk for whole day ok...

anyway, i am not in good condition. tah mana datangnye the congitivitis and i am suffering of it now. my eyes are red and i am in MC. so, will see how it goes tomorrow. maybe another MC.

shall write again tomorrow......

Tiring week….

I took EL on Tuesday and ½ day yesterday. This is because abang and adik were not feeling well. Both of them were having fever since sat, actually abang started to have fever on Saturday. Adik was just having running nose and cough. The fever was not subsided until Monday. So, on Monday night I went again to the same Mayfair clinic and later the doc gave me reference letter to see pead.

Abang was ok on Monday so I send him to school on Tuesday, thinking that it will be easier to bring adik alone after sending him to school. So, off adik and me to Columbia Asia hosp. while waiting for the GL from ING to be faxed to the hosp, abang’s teacher called me and informed me that abang was not feeling well. abang told the teacher that his got stomach ache. So, I thought I better fetch abang, get another reference letter from Mayfair and can bring abang together to Columbia Asia. So, I told the registration counter that I will come back later. That was nearly 10.30am. I rushed back and while driving I called my maid to get ready because I need to bring her along. I don’t think I can manage 2 of them at one go. Lucky that I brought my maid, the waiting of abang GL took a hell of time. The clinic close at 12pm and by 11.40, abang GL has not been faxed from ING. Hell u ING… so I told the registration to proceed with adik first. Abang punya boleh tunggu. So, we waited for our turn to see the paed.
Apparently Dr Cheok is a nice lady. She explained that the H1N1 is less painful because she just will took sample from throat. But I guess it was still traumatic to adik. And the best part, the H1N1 confirmation test was not covered under ING and it cost RM300. Dammm…. But I guess I have no choice, anything for my kids…. And the result will come out in 24 hrs…
By the time we settled everything at the hosp, it was already 1++pm. I know my kids were already hungry, restless and exhausted. Abang with his uniform and adik without morning nap, or at least I was hungry. So instead going back, we stopped at Giant and had KFC. They were not really eating, I guess the running nose and the fever make the body weak. Right after that, we were heading back home that I forgot about abang’s appointment. Too bad…




So, I took another ½ on Wednesday and brought abang back to the hosp. this time, I told doc that I don’t want to do the test and doc was agreed because looking at adik’s result which was negative… alhamdulillah. So, same medicines for abang…

So, that was my days… tiring and somemore not enough sleep…. *sigh* GET WELL SOON ABANG & ADIK…

I AM TOO OLD FOR....

1. Bungee Jumping – when I was like around 20s, I really wanted to try bungee jumping. I guess it would be fun, jumping from the sky height and bumping in the air, NO… hahaha… it will be something like in between death and life threat… but I do love anything that relates to adrenalin rush…but too sad, I haven’t got a chance to do such thing and I am at the age of limited of adrenalin hormones already…



2. Another pregnancy – yeah, heard me right….I think I’m too old to be pregnant again… I think I am at the stage where my body circulation at the last bottom. The foundation is not strong anymore. I remembered when abang was 1yr ++, everytime I see baby, I will go crazy. Keep telling my husband, we should get another one soon to my hubby dismay... heheh.. but at this age, I have no feeling whatsoever when I see any baby. Yes, all babies cute but it doesn’t make me any different feeling. I guess, having abang and adik have really occupied me a lot and at every angle.




3. Admiring CLEO 50 Most Popular Bachelor – heheheh.. yes, over the years I always looking and admiring the CLEO 50 Most Popular Bachelor. I don’t really fond to the six packs and muscle guy, I love to see a decent and average body guy. Chinese looking and if possible has long hair. To add more flavour, if the guy can play guitar… huhuhu… habis la, if my hubby ever read this. . But yes, I have stopped all this….




4. To change work – this may not be 100% accurate. I really want to move out, somewhere closer to my house so that I can have more time with my family, less rushing hours going and coming back. But to tell the truth, I have lost the touch to make up my resume and I find it is quite difficult to find a good new place to work somewhere at my house. I would probably look at Cyberjaya, Putrajaya and Bangi (maybe). But if My Yellow man calls me (eventhough it may not be at any of the stated areas) I will definitely consider it..

What I Love doing....

BAKING or in general I love cooking. I am not skilled cook, but I do love cooking. Its not that I can make money out of my baking…ehhheh.. but my passion is at the kitchen. The kitchen is like my territory and if I have started baking I really don’t want other people to disturb. But somehow, my kids managed to get over it. But I think its fun having baking session with kids. Little chef in the making, no…

I don’t really bake like every day or every week. Its like once in a blue moon…, like when I sense some “seru” that my oven will be in on mode. When it was pregnant my daughter, I was totally hooked with baking and cooking. I will bake and cook whatever I feel like and whenever I feel like doing it. I remembered, one day I came from office, quite late evening. The only thing in my mind was karipap..  I was few months pregnant at that time. So, I couldn’t wait no more, after maghrib I started my karipap mission. Asked my maid to prepare the potato, onion and all. I, myself did the batter. After that, I cooked the filling and while waiting for the filling to be ready, I did the batter. My son was amused looking at his mother digging the thing…, not to mention about my hubby…


I also love baking kuih raya. Last year I did pineapples tart and cornflakes madu. I even did 3 times from the normal measurement for pineapples tart, mainly because my hubby and I love that kuih. And I tell u, the kuih was a hit…

I hardly do any baking after I delivered my daughter which as nearly 3 years ago… but somehow, recently the “seru” came back. I even bought new bigger oven (40 litter). I have started with some muffins 2 weeks back with some assistants from abang and adik. They love “helping” me. So I guess, why not make the cooking session as part of my family get together. Next weekend, I have a big order from my sister. Actually, my parents will do some kenduri next week for my nephews “khatam quran”. So, my sister was thinking to buy muffin as one of the “berkat” besides bunga telor and some sweets. Then it triggered me, why don’t I do that. So, I called up my sister and told her not to order but I will do the 100 muffins. Wahh… macam bagus je kan.. what the heck, will take this challenge and do it. So, I guess this weekend will bring me to Bake With Yen and get started. I’m planning to do a trial this weekend, to see how many can 1 measurement make. Emm.. do some mathematics and to see if the recipe suit the tastebuds… emm.. wish all the lady lucks will be with me, with the new oven somemore. Need to get used with it so my muffin wont get burnt.. 

Terrible TWO

I am facing it right now with my daughter… it is quite difficult to handle zati right now. She can scream her lung out if we fail to entertain her requests and most of the time her requests are not supposed to be entertained, so that makes the scream even louder.

It really tested my patience till maximum level. Like what happened last Sunday at KLCC. Mind you, it was in KLCC okeh, not at home… we were quite early that day because I wanted to go to Home Deco, I have 2 things in mind that I wanted to but and have surveyed it earlier on. So, by 10.15am, we have left Puchong headed to KLCC. I asked my hubby to parked at KLCC since I wanted to withdraw some cash. So, we passed by the Maybank and hubby brought them to Toy r Us while I went to the machine. Nothing happen yet, everything was ok despite they got nothing from there. Then we made our way through Maybank to go via tunnel. Then, zati saw this coin ride where it can turn around like merry go round and requested that she wanted to ride it. Ok fine. I gave in, put a dollar and she rode it. After few seconds it stopped and I said to her, we have to make a move. The scene started right then. She screamed saying that she wanted another ride and I know if I ever gave in, there will forever. I tried pujuk her but to no available. Hubby did as well.. so, I just hold her and tried to nego with her, telling her that I will give her another ride when we finished our business in KL Convec. All the way in the tunnel she has started a little bit of screaming but still tolerable. On we stepped in front of KL Convec, the situation getting worse. Lucky that abang was behaving very very well. I took zati outside to the park, at the jogging track. She was screaming and screaming and I tell u, it was very embarrassing. Everybody was actually looking at me. Lucky at that time, which was still early the number of crowd were ok. I tried to slow talked with her, but she still adamant to go and take the ride again. Hubby was in the building and I was sweating like mad till I felt like crying. She has turned red actually and it lasted for a good 20-25 min. can u imagine that.. for nearly ½ hour… goshhhhh…. To be frank, I actually lost my patience and I did smack her to my dismay. What to do, cannot tolerate anymore.

Hubby came, we tried to pujuk again and last, we ended up bring her back to the ride all the way back to KLCC. Double gosh…. After another ride, I told her no more ride, we have to go and change money. Alhamdulillah, she was ok and she said she wanted to tell the pak guard not to give anyone ride on it because it’s hers… OMG.. it was so cute that I wanted to laugh and deeply I even regret that I lost my patience.

She was all ok all the way and I got the chance to buy my things at Home Deco. I was already lost my mood, not only me but my hubby as well. But of course with the kids, we can easily gain it back. Zati was very talkative and independent. She likes to make scene but she can get it back at no time. Sometimes, I just wonder what is the best way to bring up a child. I don’t know whether my way is a good one or there are some other ways that are far better. Its like a trial and error things. But I know I love both abang and adik very very much.

To adik, please don’t test mama’s patient like this and please forgive me for the losing it so easily…..