Story of breastfeeding and weaning off….

Breastfeeding is always an interesting topic, well at least to me. When I first got pregnant, I decided to breastfeed my son.. nih kes semangat yg berkobar2… little did I know that breastfeeding is AWFULLY DIFFICULT.. it was my mistake as well because I didn’t do any reading or research on the topic. I thought there will be no problems and it will naturally be smooth.

WRONG.. yes, I was damn wrong. When my son was born, I told the nurse that I wanted to breastfeed. With no knowledge and whatsoever, it was damn difficult and my son latched like all night/day long. Nak mandi, nak makan even to go to toilet also tak sempat. To make things worse, I got high BP throughout my 44 days of confinement. See, how cool was that. Masa pregnant tak nak pulak high BP (not that I want to ok).. and yes, I gave up. During the confinement, there were many many times that I gave formula to my son and yes, I was deprived and sad. My mission failed miserably.
After my 44 days ended, I went back to KL. This time I was quite firm to start all over again. I got to know there was a breastfeeding seminar in DSH. So, I took the opportunity and went there. I was introduced to Rita Rahayu, the part time lactation consultant. And I gained my confidence level again and to tell the truth, I was in high spirit at that time.

So, off I went back to work and I bought Medela single electric pump. It was the best investment I ever had… and Alhamdulillah, I managed to exclusively breastfeed my son for the rest of 6 months and he was breastfed until he turned 2 years old when he decided to stop cause I was pregnant again at that time.

For my daughter, since I have the experience the breastfeeding journey was really smooth. The first week after she was born, I have started collecting milk stock. Fuh, it was really good looking at the fridge full with my milk… hehheheh…. And she got the privileged to breastfeed until 2 ½ years.

And now, the problem of weaning her seems a difficult task especially night time. I have started to totally wean her. And gosh, she wake like every 2 hrs in the night asking for milk, and its not just waking up but with screaming and crying as well.. masyaAllah. Makes my blood go upstair okeh…
I won't give up because whatever has started need to be ended. So, to my dear daughter, please be good. Ya ALLAH, permudahkan apa yang aku nak buat ini..... AMIN...

first timer

I have tried blogging before, but somehow i stopped. maybe my passion was not in writting. But that was back then. Today, one of my dear friend has introduced her blog to me and it triggered me to start writing back. When I started to scrolled down her blog, reading line by line of her story, the mixture of her personal life, work life and her passion towards anything, i suddenly was motivated to start blogging.

It was funny feeling actually. I don't know whether this time will last till when but I just felt that I want to try again. Who knows this will be my online journal of daily ramblings which will include anything under the sun, and perhaps in future when I look back I will remember what has happened.....

till then, good luck to....