Story of breastfeeding and weaning off….

Breastfeeding is always an interesting topic, well at least to me. When I first got pregnant, I decided to breastfeed my son.. nih kes semangat yg berkobar2… little did I know that breastfeeding is AWFULLY DIFFICULT.. it was my mistake as well because I didn’t do any reading or research on the topic. I thought there will be no problems and it will naturally be smooth.

WRONG.. yes, I was damn wrong. When my son was born, I told the nurse that I wanted to breastfeed. With no knowledge and whatsoever, it was damn difficult and my son latched like all night/day long. Nak mandi, nak makan even to go to toilet also tak sempat. To make things worse, I got high BP throughout my 44 days of confinement. See, how cool was that. Masa pregnant tak nak pulak high BP (not that I want to ok).. and yes, I gave up. During the confinement, there were many many times that I gave formula to my son and yes, I was deprived and sad. My mission failed miserably.
After my 44 days ended, I went back to KL. This time I was quite firm to start all over again. I got to know there was a breastfeeding seminar in DSH. So, I took the opportunity and went there. I was introduced to Rita Rahayu, the part time lactation consultant. And I gained my confidence level again and to tell the truth, I was in high spirit at that time.

So, off I went back to work and I bought Medela single electric pump. It was the best investment I ever had… and Alhamdulillah, I managed to exclusively breastfeed my son for the rest of 6 months and he was breastfed until he turned 2 years old when he decided to stop cause I was pregnant again at that time.

For my daughter, since I have the experience the breastfeeding journey was really smooth. The first week after she was born, I have started collecting milk stock. Fuh, it was really good looking at the fridge full with my milk… hehheheh…. And she got the privileged to breastfeed until 2 ½ years.

And now, the problem of weaning her seems a difficult task especially night time. I have started to totally wean her. And gosh, she wake like every 2 hrs in the night asking for milk, and its not just waking up but with screaming and crying as well.. masyaAllah. Makes my blood go upstair okeh…
I won't give up because whatever has started need to be ended. So, to my dear daughter, please be good. Ya ALLAH, permudahkan apa yang aku nak buat ini..... AMIN...